Maybe when we are not so old

Maybe when outside it is not so cold

Maybe if we all were always young

Maybe after our lives just begun

Maybe when the moon brightens the day

Maybe when the dolphins sleep on the bay

Maybe if we all loved each other

Maybe if we all had a younger brother

Maybe if our lives were neverending

Maybe if the proud were not condescending

Maybe if we were all successful and rich

Maybe if we all had houses on the beach

What about now?

Don't close your eyes

I am right here waiting

With welcoming arms

Wade through the dark

Towards my voice

When this night is gone

And when you hear me speak

It will be the only voice

Louder than words

The only voice you hear.

And in the midst of the roar

A silent voice comes through

Guiding you to this light

Don't close your eyes

Let me hear you speak...

Citizen of my imagination

I am in love with you

Sole ruler of my dedicated nation

A population of two

You've been my inspiration

From the time we began

Bound together since creation

I am your best man

More than you will ever know

I will travel the world for you

I will open up so it may show

So you could know it is true.

Like the whispering wind carrying my thoughts to the heavens

Your words lift the melody off the pages I write

Waves of harmonious ripples caress me at night

The author of my dreams you are

Healer of the most painful of moments

I see you holding me above the dark abyss

Like a place that holds the best of thoughts

I hold you tight till your breath fills me

Like the rainbow that brightens the meekest of infants

I see your color in the grey hours

She held my hand and said it would be okay

She told me she would never let me stray

Never hesitating to take blame for my blunders

Shielding me always from life's great thunders

She washed away my pains with her tears

She told me stories so I could conquer my fears

She called everyday to make sure my nights were good

She gave me strength so I did everything that I could

In the midst of sorrow I could always find her smile

Her words I hold as I wade through a world so hostile

Her memory I shall cherish for eternity and thereafter

When I think of her I shall always find laughter...

See the leaves fall to the ground

My soul, their spirits have found

See the clouds roll past the hills

Satisfaction my soul has found

So this is life flowing like a river

In Nature, Yes I am a believer...

See the leaves fly from the tree

My spirit, my soul, they are free

See the squirrels play in the yard

Understanding, I wish I had

So this is life flowing like the wind

Cleansing all those who have sinned...

Standing on the EDGE

along the center line

Dark weights full of LEAD

pull on the other side

These weak legs of MINE

hold between the center line

Black hawks that DINE

devour them on the other side

Every dream I ever HAD

every man I ever loved

Everything I ever GOT

everything I ever saw

Every one I ever TOLD

is lost on the other side...

I never was the masculine type

My tear ducts were always at work

From the time I could remember

I was as they said, overtly sensitive

I cried when it was too hot

I would cry at the things I forgot

I cried because daddy was mad at me

I would cry because I wanted to be free

I would cry at a sensitive moment during the movies

I got taunted when I cried at school

I was a sissy boy, bad boys don't cry

I decided to change

I decided to conform

But I never was the mild type

I was always an extremist

Never one to play in the middle

So I closed my tear ducts in public

I shot down my emotional cortex

I refused to be called the Sissy Boy!

It got me nowhere

It didn't bring about the happiness I sort after

It made me a stranger to myself

I grew further apart from all around me

I didn't care anymore about the things that mattered

I hated the new self

The self that showed no emotions when called for

I refuse to conform to the norm that is abnormal

I reopened the ducts of tears

I opened my self to fears

I would cry when they came and I would go on

I would walk on after the fears and sorrows

I would be a Sissy if I have to.

It's not fair

When you want to get over him

You come running to me

Please beware

I consider your actions grim

I just want to be free

All that you had

All the days you were sad

All the days you were glad

You took it all away

You were led astray

By his very eloquent bouquet

Now the petals are dry

And the stems wry

The fragrance gone

But the time has come

That I must say goodbye

And wade offshore.

How long

Can we ride

On the winds of dust

Drifting endlessly

bound forever together

In a journey of uncertainty

Wading on

In the darkness

Watching the helpless drown

Never more

We jump out

We lend a hand and form the dream corps.

You say you don't know

You think it's all gone

So you run.

You cry and you bleed

Thinking it is undone

So you run.

You yearn for a touch

Thinking you have none

So you run

The love they gave to you

The memories you both shared

The moment you knew they cared

It caused the detour...

I suppose

You are the only one to fall

I suppose

You are the worst of them all

The day is calling you

Tomorrow is coming soon

So wipe your teary eyes

And see the bright blue skies

I propose

You smile just once more

I propose

You come through the door

The day is turning new

Your dreams can come true

So turn a new leaf

And toss away that grief

I suppose

You have what we cannot know

I suppose

You think you should now just go

The sun shines just for you

The birds chirp just for you

Hope wants you to know

You can't let go…

It's a mind circus

I feel the thrusts

The thoughts spin in my head

As I toss around in my bed

Falling

Seven feet under

Now I wonder

Is this the end

Where's my friend?

Wanting

I feel the hunger

I pray for thunder

Cue the rain

Wash away my pain

Searching

Ready for your care

To dry my tear

Here comes the dawn

The pain is gone...

All around me are drowning sorrows

People lost in their absent tomorrows

Watching as opportunity narrows

They lost their places

Defeat on their faces

In need of embraces

The life of nightmare

Are the best they can bear

The cloak of despair

Is all they can wear

Sister Sister help me tell them

Their sorrows we can stem

Brother Brother help them look up

We give them a half full cup

They had a dream

They did not scream

They knew they could

They dreamed of good

They woke to hope...

Just one kiss is all you need

Just one kiss could cause you to bleed

Just one voyage into the sea

Could cause you to see

That your soul is entangled

That love could be mangled

But it is all I would desire

I would hold on and never tire

I would never miss a beat

I would suffer no defeat

Just one soul is all you can bring

And to love is all you can cling

I would take you under my wing

And forge you the indestructible ring

Even when it fades to black

I would never turn back

I would be hooked into our scene

The curtain shall never fall in between...

The contempt on your face

As I take his embrace

Broken, you cry

You tell all I lie

The Gun in your hand

As I take a stand

Bang! You shoot

The pain is acute

The lies from your mouth

As I fall South

Suicide, you say

The World fades to Grey

You and me together

Now a fantasy

The dream of someone

Never to wake.

Wasted all this time waiting

Brought me to my worst

Tell me is it worth it?

Am I ever to be the first?

Wasted all night dreaming

Thought I would wake up happy

Tell me should I keep fighting?

Am I ever going to win?

Wasted all my days searching

Fought so hard to get through

Tell me is that you I see?

Am I ever to have a clue?

Hold me in your arms

and tell me this would be forever

Bring out those charms

and tell me this is a positive endeavor

Words so shallow

can take so much pain away

Just tell me this is REAL

You are everything I hoped for

You are all I wanted and much more

If I told you my secret

Promise it won't cause our split?

You brought a new light into my life

You brought an end to my endless strife

If I told you I love you

Would you believe it to be true?

You put all my broken pieces together

You brought warmth to this cold weather

If I brought you the stars

Would you remove all the bars?

I am the new mended me with you

The mended me is about to debut.

I am a post-modern, ultra-modern

and retro-modern being,

seeing that I have been uploaded, downloaded,

and reloaded

into every situation, dimension

and location

where I have seen and been to every clean, lean,

and serene realm

that overshadows my reality

but in actuality

I can see and flee from danger,

even the baby in the manger

knows better than to cater to the batter

who is so mean, bold, cold in his soul

and lo

and behold

he does not exist in my reality

but permit me to say

that this day in may

I just realized I have been victimized

and idolized

by the very same sane

but insane people who are vain

in the sense

that my presence

instigates and propagates their essence,

dare I say quintessence

as they exist in the fifth realm

one away from where I dwell

which has superimposed, juxtaposed

and I suppose

overshadowed my reality.

Oh, the dreams we had

Dreams of hope and joy

Yes, we dreamed of love

Of peace and of fun

Naive as they come

Our dreams were shattered

Our hopes were battered

But onward! We persevered

Sing it!

Sing it loud!

Sing the songs of hope

Sing the songs of freedom

Come out!

Come out proud!

Come out in your numbers

Come out to send hate asunder

Conceive your dreams

Let out those beams

Shine for all to see

Shine so the dark can flee

Together in harmony

In the life great symphony

Sing of hope and joy

Of love, of peace

...and of freedom

but greatest of all... UNDERSTANDING!

Kneeling alone in your bedroom

Eyes up to heaven

You start to pray

Alone by your bed

Thoughts fill your head

You beg so you can be fed

No! You never have to cry

Yes! Somethings die

Now wipe away your tears

Confront your fears

Every night in your dreams

You sail turbulent seas

But somehow you survive

Deep down inside

You know what you hide

Your faith begs to come outside

No! You never have to be alone

He is your own

Now you know with whom you stand

Reach for his hand

Open you eyes; wake up with pride

He is on your side

You will never be lonely

Walk out the door

Live life some more

Tell all of him you adore

No! You never have to crawl

He'll lift you up

Spread your wings so you can fly

Don't say goodbye...

Think it's time to put all those thoughts out

Try to kill the towering doubt

And resuscitate the faith hidden

Keep control of me

I try to find myself hidden inside

Uncover the soul that died

And recover the frequency

Keep control of me

I broke away from those things behind me

Those things others did not see

Didn't know how deep the trance was

Didn't know to follow nature's laws

I tried to walk away from those pulling the other way

I left the night for the new day

I tried to rekindle the flame long gone

Got back the friendship withdrawn

Something new has taken control

I made an essential goal

Keep control of my addictions

Get healed from my afflictions

Keep control of me

Open up your eyes

So you can realize

That here stands your destiny

Waiting patiently for eternity

In my heart lies an empty spot

An inviting and yearning lot

Reserved for the right resident

The one camping out in the cold tent

With you, I will conquer

All doubts put asunder

Happiness will be our true friend

Bliss our ally till the end

The right choice you will make

My commitment I will not break

I will stand out here in the rain

I will prove to you I am sane

Stand out here I will till you open

I will not allow my spirit to be broken

A glimpse of you through the window

Will ignore the time that lies below

In my dreams I have seen this

Now I will know what love is

My patience and commitment rewarded

My devotion and loyalty applauded

I would sing songs for you who loves me

I would write till I bleed for you who loves me

I would gives my eyes to you who loves me

I would give my heart to you who loves me

My life is yours for the taking you who loves me

I would inflict pain upon myself for you who loves me

I would change the world for you who loves me

For what could be a melody without you who loves me

Or a symphony of words without you who loves me

How could I see happiness without you who loves me

Or keep a beating heart without you who loves me

What would life be without you who loves me

How can I know pleasure without you who loves me

How could my world exist without you who loves me

I have learned from Him who performed the greatest sacrifice

A sacrifice without measure, which showed His love

My gift to you is yours forever

The knowledge I have I would give to you who loves me.

Blue birds chirping silent songs on the trees

tall and brown by the shadow of the blue waters

that caress the soft orange scales of the fish

leaping in and out next to the white swans dancing

along to the black ducks' deep baritone voices

that echo the sweet melody of the white clouds

above the brown giant eagles and hawks clapping

in unison with the drumming and thumping

of the hoofs that resound the joy under the wet rain

shimmering background vocals together an orchestra

playing before the rainbow, the sun and the far moon

guardians of all, which play together beneath them.

I do understand the seriousness of life

Yet I bask in the glorious joy that is living

I immerse myself in the logic of hate

Which exists so that love may prevail

At times I stand alone a resident in my insane utopia

With me mere memories of those sane lies

I understand the destructive power of knowledge

Within it however lies the healing power of wisdom

Around us exists the perfect balance of light and darkness

Though once in a while a shadow of imbalance does exists

In this imperfection we must find harmony

For therein lies the roots and stems of sanity

I understand that not all of history is true

I however know legends may become fact to the masses...

Love! She bites hard until out comes kindness

Relentless, she presses on for forgiveness

She knows not the judge nor does she the jury

She knows not pride but understands fury

In everyone she finds a measure of beauty

Love gives to others without reciprocity

Knowing how to make even the most unbecoming pretty

Love grants the beauty hidden within some visibility

A friend of patience she is and a cousin of humility

I knew when we met I had seen an enigma

Never to leave a trace of infamy or become a stigma

Intangible yet palpable, she yearns for fellowship

She is a common bond of companionship

She is sadly misunderstood by many

She cannot be purchased for a dime nor a penny

She does not fade away in ten years or twenty

She instead can reside within for eternity...

Where does sorrow lie in the morning

How does pain cope when all is well

How does she cry when he is happy

Where does death go when life is born

How does hate cope when love abounds

Where does darkness hide when light shines?

What is happiness without sorrow

And light without darkness

Why have mountains without valleys?

and riches without poverty

What is heaven without hell

And God without the Devil?

Why stay down when you fall

When you can always rise up

Why care about those that hate

And abandon those you love?

Both shall bring balance to chaos

But the choice is mine as to which will persist

Forget that which is less

Embrace I will that which will elevate me...

Falling

Eyes starting to drift now

Mind's calling

Keep my head bowed to the ground

So dark

Can't see

I can feel my hand dreaming

Beating slow

Feeling faint

Drenched in this cold paint

So come on Angel

I feel the wind again

Slide in between these soul

Carry me from my pain

The light ahead is inviting

Drowning this dark tower

Heart is beating faster now

A smile is finally home

Hold my hands for now

Guide me through my dream

Lay down

Eyes closed

Good Night...

I am not dubious nor am I pugnacious.

I am instead auspicious, assiduous, and fastidious.

I find cursing superfluous, egregious, and heinous.

I have a prodigious heart and I am meticulous.

I am however, sometimes seen as imperious.

I believe in being gratuitous and facetious.

I dislike the fractious, contemptuous, spurious, and rancorous,

and those who are notorious for being timorous.

I am diligent, benevolent, and cogent.

Some may see me as indolent but opulent.

My speech is now coherent and emollient,

due to my inherent skills that are now nascent.

I believe it is exemplary when one has integrity.

I don't indulge in hypocrisy nor am I haughty.

Amongst my friends, there is camaraderie and no disparity.

I am not archaic nor am I prosaic,

But I am a maverick who is caustic.

At times, I may be cryptic while also frenetic.

Running round

She comes around

To tell of love

That flows from above

Calmly panting

She goes on ranting

Leave your sorrow

Live for tomorrow

Forgive your neighbor

Find your savior

Love thy brother

Protect thy sister

They stay to listen

Ears all tuned in

She has their gazes

She sees their faces

They warm to her

Those near and afar

Not a tear is shed

But their souls are fed

They run back home

To tell of the hope

And of a message

From the preacher lady

Travelling

Through the distant jungle

A dose of my reality

And when the sun goes down

The trees take their bow

Covering darkness hope

And I feel all alone

And the fears takes the reins

I reach out to the rings

There I find solace

In this towering darkness

So good

I can see myself

And when it rains

I loose the dry spells

A swithering radiation befalls

It's in your hand

It's in your feet

It's where you stand

It's on your street

Let it shake you

Let it break you

Let it be your ride

It's who you are

It's in your dream

It's your guiding star

It's how you scream

Let it wake you

Let it quake you

Take you from where you hide

It's where you hide

It's in your voice

It's how you feel inside

It's how you rejoice

Let it make you

Let it take you

Let it be your guide

It's how you speak

It heals your scar

It's how you shriek

It's your voice.

For how long

must we sing the same song

Going round

we never seem to break ground

Broken Promises

abundant as the oceans' crevices

Brilliant ideas

hastingly trampled on by cowardly fears

Nature cries

as our future chokes before her eyes

Earth's shields

shattered as the desert encroached fields

Pouring rain

falls down on the dead in vain

A turn around

is bound to stir this mound

Ease the pain

that cripples this ill grain

Raise the blindfold

that shelters us from our gold

...our future

You run a million miles

You get far from nowhere

You hide between the aisles

You are made well aware

A fight with fate

A struggle with love

A futile battle

In the end

I will find you.